beholden ~ ~ ~

 beholden ~ 

how do we get from there 

to here 

here to there 

afar from womb & wonder 

tightly bound gravity held 

to the 

percussive lightening 

wicked wildling 

riotously arriving

wearing chaos & wisdom 

in an old comfy black tee 

woven from ancient-star-stories 

then 

tossing it aside for raw giggly-ridiculous-laughter 

piercing 

cutting

cuttting

cutting

thru the shit

hold tight & release 

hold tight & release 

hold tight & release 

leaving space

only …space .. and the awareness

of space 

you taught well oh coyote wizard … oh being of light! 

being of joy! 

stretch

i can't separate enough

peel

myself away from the wonder or the tumult 

long 

     enough to write a word down 

maybe i should try to write a word up 

with the tiny white hairs of my dog 

or the blood of a thousand sorrows that feels so laced within this day . . . 

all here 

all knowing 

maybe i can just become a cloud full of particles & 

change & sunlight . . ..

maybe then 

just then i can become hollow enough 

full enough to listen to the wind
finding contentment in the bind