was were am

I WAS THE GIRL 

chosen last because I was skinny & my knee socks didn't stay up

I was the girl who thought she could change the molecular pattern of 

objects and create snow 

.... or an apple

I was the girl who understand when ken & barbie started sleeping together, 

It was time to pack up the toys & turn up Led Zeppelin

I was the girl who knew every homeless animals name in the whole wide world

and if I thought hard enough, could keep them safe & warm

I was the girl who danced on her bed while singing Hey Jude & Henry the 8th I am I am ...

I was the girl who learned about music, weed & how to dance from the best neighbor boy in the world . He was 3 years older, gay, handsome & funny. He took me to his senior prom. 
He died of AIDS.

I was the girl who had a golden ticket to Camelot & a green Pontiac convertible

I was the girl sitting alone at the river knowing answers pooled there along the 

sandbars & reeds and if I thought hard enough - prayed hard enough, 

I would hear those answers and I could then fix things 

I was the girl who discovered James Taylor, 

Jack Daniels & orgasm in the same evening - while babysitting 

I was the girl who followed meadowlarks down rabbit holes 

I was the girl who married to escape only to be bushwhacked by the karma bus

I was the girl who found Wonderland under your hands 

I was broken girl; weary & afraid, missing pieces of bone & heart 

only to discover I had them all along

bound to my soul with a ribbon of goldenrod & blue sky 

I am that girl . . . 

And now I don't wear knee socks (or underwear)

I still believe if i think fiercely enough, I can shield animals from harm while changing 

Apples into Snow 

I am a mere 2 degrees away from knowing Robert Plant

So I sing Led Zeppelin with abandon from beds, bars & cars

I have always lived in Camelot 

and 

I have folded my golden ticket into a tiny origami sparrow
and
placed it inside a wee blue bottle on a thin silver thread

Marriage is ethereal &  a good escape plan. 

All the best stories have an escape plan.

I have been to Wonderland, and some of my best missing pieces are still there ...

Every answer to any question can be found in a JT song, a Beatle's song, or a river's song 

Karma bus - well , shit happens. 

Live like you are dying even when you are weary & afraid . 

I have stopped fixing things. 

And strangely, things fix. 

I am the broke-open-whole girl 

and 

I am goldenrod-blue-ribboned-sky &  a meadowlark's song