it never quite fit
(unless a sobriquet)
too noble too tight
Susan got so in my way
too live up to
to live down
to be Suze or Suki
I preferred to that proper noun
who should be adorned in long flowing gowns of white and polished sky-blue
barefoot thru gardens & forests of yew
reading Dickens Wolfe Faulkner & Dr. Who
songs by Scott
Taylor
and Cohen she knew creating a self portrait of this muse felt
fucking taboo
better
to be reduced to a diminutive self-proclaimed Susie by everyelse ....
Susan means lily
while Susie
means
perhaps a little less a lily
